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-23 Februari 2010

Silence is louder than the loudest scream

If you have to keep your voices inside, and you really have to hide it despite your heart is broken, and you have no more tears to melt, and you can only seal your mouth off, that's when you already feel numb-the situation when you have no energy left to crying over your broken heart because it has been broken for a very long time and you already get used to it.

No obvious time, but this will.

This will soon be gone. Yes, this better will. No matter how long it takes, this will be covered with another sweeter memories that will come right into your hand. Hence, you'll be fine if it aches everytime before that time comes. Be patience. This is one of your test.

Think, what would they feel

If you cheated easily on them, people who did their maximal effort and sacrificed everything to be success, how would they feel? Who were you and what right did you have to take something which actually theirs?

Life won't be unfair if it's human who creates the justice, will it?

I wonder

If our relationship wasn't over, I would probably be in love with him, too much, that it hurted me so bad and made me numb. It wouldn't have a good ending either.

One thing I've learned today

"Fight Fire with Fire"
Respond to an attack by using a similar method as one's attacker.
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Kadang aku iri dengan mereka yang sudah terlihat bersinar, sudah terlihat jalan yang bisa dan akan mereka tempuh. Kadang aku iri dengan mereka yang sudah tahu jalan, sudah tahu kemana mereka akan menapak. Kadang sempat menyesal, kenapa dulu aku tidak seserius itu memikirkan hari ini. Kenapa dulu aku tidak memusingkan hari ini. Kenapa?

Sepertinya ini pelajaranku untuk hari ini.

If someone's asking

Why does God give me happiness and problem at the same time?


It's because God doesn't want people to always be on the top of the world and forget the way to go back down.   We may fall fastly and crashed on the ground if we fly too high. If God gives happiness and problem in the same time, there'll be an equality between both of them and it will make your life keep balanced.

Her confession yet decision

She probably loved him, but she didn't know what love was. To know and to understand it, she had to learn about it. Thus, to learn about love, which was an enormous abstract thing, would take likely a whole life of a human. And it also made no sense to learn about love which had no end. Then she tried to forget it, step by step. To forget it -love, her feeling, and him involving- would also take a very long time. She had to learn about how to forget everything which once was her main reason to smile all day long, despite her messy emotion while she met him accidentally. If you wanted to forget someone, you automatically had to forgive yourself because of the unwanted feeling after you forgot that person-which was another homework to do beside learning about how to forget. It would take a lot more energy and sacrifices, right?

Finally, she decided to learn about getting closer to god, Allah SWT. Because if she forgot all of her burdens in the world and genuinely let everything happened under Allah SWT's provision, one day, she'll be able to know what love is, how to forget her broken heart, and how to forgive anybody.

New Beginning